Gawd
I feel neglecting.
Seriously.
First, I let my goldfish die.
I didn't even realize he was dead either.
He was in that tank for at least a week, I fed him and everything.
You think I'd realize something was wrong when the food created a small cover over the water... :/
So yeah, it was fun fishing him out of the tank, under all the nasty food.
Although the frog in there is still alive.
I swear, he's mutated or something.
He was suppost to last about 2 years.
I've had him for 5 and he ain't dying :/.
Something must be wrong...

Second, I'm kind of ignoring my best chick friend.
Its not that I really mean to, its just that...
Well, like we used to text at least 20,000 messages a month right?
Not exagurating, my phone bill came in a BOX.
:/
Anyways, we used to text alot. But then when I started talking to my best guy friend alot, aswell as my little brother's best friend, my friend Greg, my new friend Rae, my cousin Jami, my boyfriend Josh, other new bud Shaquille, and a few other peoples I forget about, I also have two babies running around that I have to take care of, them being 3 years old, and having to clean the house all the time ontop of it, I don't really have the time to reply to her text messages.
I honestly feel really bad about it. Seriously.
She used to be my best friend of all time until Gerardo became my guy best friend.
Then I had to channel my attention to both of them.
Then alot of shit started happening.
Not to mention theres been alot of drama going on between my boyfriend, my best guy friend, and myself.
I think thats all over though... Anyways-

Third, I have an account on Neopets.
I had joined a guild there and I'm part of the council.
I also run and manage the shop.
Its one of my favorite activities because I'm pretty good with the whole business management thing and numbers.
So yeah. Plus if the guild ends up getting closed down, if no one asks I'm entitled to the funds.
So yeah. It works for me in the end.
But anyways, I haven't been taking care of the shop as much as I used to, or participating in the guild at all really.
I mean, first it was me not leaving the shop alone and yelling at people to donate.
Now its like I just kind of forgot about it all together...
I just restocked it a while ago, maybe I can stay ontop of it again.

Fourth, I feel neglectful to my dA account.
Before I had promised to post some of my shit on here but that hasn't happened.
Which sucks cause I'm getting alot better in my opinion.
I know that none of you probably give a damn but hey, maybe y'all might enjoy what I draw.
But, reason being for that is because my printer, you know, the one from before, COMPLETELY busted.
Seriously.
I try to scan something, and the whole page is black with ink.
Do you guys know how expensive ink gets when you have to keep paying for it??
There goes my fucking life savings.
:c
Anyways, I don't know when I'll be able to go out and buy a new one so yeah.
Not to mention I just don't feel up to drawling any more most of the time.
I don't know, I just don't feel any insperation...
Thats just a fucking kill joy for me.
*tries to slit wrist with paper bag*
...
Why isn't this WORKING??
D:<

Anyways, I probably have more things to rant on about but I'm on the phone with Gerardo, Josh, and Shaquille so I can't really compose my thoughts.
I should just kick them off and redo this whole journal entry :/
Eh, I'll do it later if I remember/have the time.

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